So This is the New Year

I feel obliged to write a New Year post. As a blogger, I read other blogs and I've found that most of them have written the classic New Year post. "I can't believe what happened to me this year, I'm so happy, what a great year, I'm so different, blah blah blah blah." (nothing against those typical new years post, I read them don't I? And I enjoy them.)

Well- mine may be a bit different. I'm so glad this year is over. The first 3 months of it were really the only that hinted a nice 2006 filled with happy changes, fun adventures and opportunities to grow and change in positive ways. I can't even remember anything that happened January-February. Come April and my year basically turned to shit. There were changes, there were adventures and I sure as hell grew- but there wasn't anything positive about it- and honestly I don't want to do the typical "lets find the positivity in it" writing. I think I've done that and I hold that inside of me, the underlying optimism and positivity, still. But at the end of the day, I'm really f-ing glad this year is done.

I wrote back in the fall about my hesitance to call the Jewish New Year my New Year. I'm ready now. I'm still hesitant, there is a bit of pessimism that shows itself more prominently in me now, but I'm also excited at the plans I've made for 2007 and the hopes I have for what the year could mean for me, my family and my friends.

As we rang in the New Year here last night my Mom put on a Death Cab song... "The New Year" and I'll leave it here for you. For me, its a fitting description for the pessimist in me. For the optimist in me I see a fitting description of the possibilities a New Year can hold if you don't put too much weight on the occasion and just keep living each day.

Happy New Year

"The New Year"

Death Cab For Cutie- Transatlanticism

so this is the new year.
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one

i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

there'd be no distance that could hold us back (x2)

so this is the new year (x4)